Matthew 27:3-4
Then Judas, which had betrayed him, when he saw that he was condemned, repented himself, and brought again the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders, Saying, I have sinned in that I have betrayed the innocent blood. And they said, What is that to us? see thou to that.
When things don’t work out how we expected them to, we can’t just undo what we’ve done. When we see the outcome and it’s something we didn’t anticipate and regret fills our hearts, we can’t always make it right. Judas brings back his blood money, but it’s too late. He can’t buy back Jesus from the hands of the Pharisees. He can’t undo the arrest and the trial and all the events that that one action set in motion.
The chief priests are no help to Judas in this matter. “See thou to that,” is their response. “You deal with it. It’s not our problem.” They had gotten what they wanted, and so they didn’t care if Jesus was innocent. They didn’t care about the truth. Sometimes it’s too late to remedy a situation, and we just have to face the consequences of it. And Judas decided he couldn’t live with what he had done, and so he takes his own life.
Unforeseen results of our choices can bring us to these desperate places. What do we do when we find ourselves in these kinds of situations? We have to bring it before the Lord. No one else will be able or even willing to do something for us. We might have gotten ourselves into a mess, but God is gracious. We may have to face some consequences, but we can seek God in that messy aftermath to help us deal with it in a right way. Instead of resorting again to another bad choice, we can make a right choice and try to take a positive step that will get us back on the right track.
If Judas would have waited a few days and learned that Jesus was alive again, would that have made a difference to him? Would that fact have changed him at all? It should make a difference to us, because Jesus went to the cross because we sin and fail and do the wrong thing. He died for us because we don’t get everything right. And now that He is alive, we have redemption for even the most regrettable things we’ve ever done. So let us trust Jesus. Let us trust His sacrifice. Let us receive His forgiveness and allow Him to help us deal with whatever consequences we face for our sinful choices.