Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
David had just explored in this psalm how God knows him so intimately, how God knows everything about him. He’s recognized that God sees him through the dark and is always there wherever he may get to. He’s understood that God made him and planned out his life for him, that God’s fingerprints are all over every part of him and his life. In the end, he’s really kind of left in awe about the intricacies of God’s knowledge of him and the careful examination that he’s subject to.
But now David invites God into the deepest places of his heart and mind. He knows God always has access to these places, but he wants God to know that he wants everything in his heart and mind to be in line with what God wants. Knowing as he does what God’s heart is toward him, he wants to explore now what his heart is toward God. He wants to get rid of anything that shouldn’t be there, to make right any wrong. His recognition of how God sees him causes him to want what God sees in Him to be pleasing to Him.
God’s knowledge of us is an established fact. So we must also see ourselves from His perspective. He knows the good and bad, the right and wrong of us. He knows what dwells deep within us. And so He can reveal those things to us and help us to see as He sees. He can help us change what needs to be changed, to take another path in order to be who we are supposed to be to match up with His vision for us. And we seek this knowledge for ourselves so that we can change our way to match God’s way.
This isn’t a request that we should make lightly. If we ask God to dig in deep, we might not like what He uncovers within us. It may be a painful process to deal with it properly. We may have to go places we thought we’d never have to revisit. But if we are truly willing to invite God into those places, those feelings, those thoughts, those attitudes and memories and hurts and all that is within us, an amazing transformation can occur. A closeness with God is established that we can’t get any other way when we get real and raw with Him. May we be willing to invite God in, to learn those things about ourselves, and to respond to what His Spirit reveals in us. And may it be truly with a desire to have within us only those things that please Him.
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